i am awake at 4:30…again. It’s been happening more and more lately. I decided to go home after work tonight when i was surprisingly wrapped around 9pm…which is unheard of on a Friday. We usually work until at least midnight and then have beers on the lot. I have been doing alot of reading on set, which is sort of the nature of being a stand in. I must tell you about this book i recently read. It is called “In defense of Food: An Eaters Manifesto.” The title alone should draw you to it if you love food even a fraction of how much i do, but there is so much more to this book. The bottom line is this. Our relationship, as Americans, to food is horrible. In a study done between French and Americans, people were shown a picture of chocolate cake and asked to say the first word that comes to mind. The French, overwhlemingly, said “celebration.” Do you know what the Americans said?…..”GUILT.”
We have been so confused by the government and advertising and left it up to scientists to tell us how, when, why, and what we should eat we have forgotten the many pleasures of sitting down and enjoying our food. “Western Diseases” are on the rise…that’s what they are called in the book because no other country stuggles with heart disease, high blood pressure,diabetes, and heart attacks like we do; and small farms are slowly but surely being replaced with environment destroying factory farms.
If you want to live a happy and healthy life, and enjoy the many things involved in and that result from peparing a meal and sitting down with friends over a table of real food and good wine, please read this book. It will change your perspective and challenge you to take back REAL food over the many “food products” we have available to us as Americans.
I am now reading “Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland”, and i have ordered “French Women Don’t Get Fat,” “The Great Gatspy, and Upton Sinclair’s “The Jungle.” I’ll keep you updated on how they are.
So i am off work today because Mary Louise isn’t working and i am getting some much needed reading and writing done. I have ordered some books off Amazon because i am about to finish Wicked and need new reading material. I also walked to a cafe nearby this morning to enjoy crepes, cappucino, and Movie Maker and i stumbled upon a fantastic interview with actor James Cromwell. In it he said something so beautiful i thought i would share it with you…
“As an actor, I’ve had this experience of sitting offstage waiting to go onstage. There is a line on the floor: On one side of the line it is dark, it is offstage, and on the other side of the line it is lit, it is bright. And in that lit space, in your line of sight, there is a conversation going on. There’s an audience. There are observers of this conversation which you are about to have with some cost, some effort and some energy. And you will never know how it is really perceived by the people in the dark, beyond that lit space. I think of that as a metaphor: We are in a womb and we make our entrance onto a stage, into a play we may have played many times before and we assume a character. which we think is us. The idea is to so inhabit it that it becomes us and we have this conversation, which is a play–it is a fiction. There is a real event in the darkness that exists and there are watchers. There are the generations, there are the gods, there are the others who watch and listen and make we know not what of all we do. So all we have is that moment in the light and what you do with it–how you inform it, how you enjoy it, how you expand it and how you live it. Then you’re off into the darkness once again. You disappear. The lights go down. It’s over. Whatever is beyond is unknown and will always remain unknown.”
I haven’t had a chance to update on the job because i am literally dead when i get home and up the next morning too early to type anything coherent. But thanks to some excedrin too late in the evening, i am just bursting with energy at 11:30, sitting on the porch feeling the cool night breeze, and doing a little spiritual healing to Griffin House.
Job’s going well, really exciting and i am learning alot. I have been warned about talking too much but other than that, i haven’t fucked up too badly. Mary Louise is nice and talks to me from time to time and that is seriously all that i can ask for. The entire cast is so talented and down to earth, and i learn alot about acting technique just from watching them work everyday. I talk to the writers and producers too, to better understand every aspect of this industry and have picked up a few choice technical terms in the world of lighting. The paychecks aren’t half bad either! I am SAG now, so that should help push the process of finding and agent and going out on auditions a bit further. I am really beginining to feel like i am establishing a life here. I new one, that is mine and no one else’s. I make decisions based on my needs and wants and not that of others. It is an empowering feeling i have to say. The only downside to working such long hours is that i don’t have time to take any classes or really go on auditions. I have been sent out on one for Johnson and Johnson but other than that i am expected to be at work and available, although i have wonderful people there who want me to succeed and therefore will let me go on the occasional audition if i ask. I do feel the slightest bit like i don’t have a life. Going out isn’t really in my vocabulary and being young, i feel that it should be. Not to go out and get wasted, but to just get out of the house and be social. I guess that will come later…nothing worth having ever came easy, right? Or so they say…time will tell.