I have a love/hate relationship with my days off. I’m sure you can guess why…free time but not making money. But i am feeling better today after a fantastic and suppotive email from a friend a short drive north of me. Lately i have been feeling stuck. I think i’ve figured out the pattern that i fall into. If i do the same thing everyday for more than a couple of months, i start to lose my mind. I have worked for seven, yes i said seven retailers, four gyms, and have had countless other temporary jobs. Once im in a routine, then it’s time to leave! There could be many reasons or this, but I am really not interested in the reasons right now. I just want a change. Luckily it is coming, in three weeks, and after an enlightning conversation with our first A.D., i have come to the conclusion that standing in is just not for me. I have learned so much from this experience and i have memories that i will cherish for the rest of my life. How many young, inexperienced actors get to watch some of the best in the business work everyday? Not many. And i came out of it with my SAG membership. What will i do now? I really have no idea. I am sure ill have to do background for a bit until i find something that pays enough and can accomadate auditions, but i will find it. It is time to make this happen, and do what i came here to do. L.A. is such a catch 22. All the opportunity in the world is right next door, but it all costs money. So you get a job to pay for it, then you don’t have the time to spend on classes, workshops, and all the other glorious things this city has to offer. There is a method to this madness and dammit if i won’t figure it out eventually. So in much the same way that i feel about my days off…i have a love/hate relationship with this city. Right now i just want to get out. But i know, this is where i must be. If it would only rain…off to hike. The only free thing you can do in L.A.