Well hello! I am on the 4th day of the artist’s way and feeling pretty darn good. Everyday, you are supposed to start the day with a free flow write for 3 pages. You don’t read it after you write it, you just close the notebook and leave the words on the page, never to be read again. The purpose of this is to get your mind going for the day. You can write a story, vent, write the same thing over and over again, whatever you want. There is no right or wrong, you just need to get whatever it is that is in your mind out, and onto that page. I am happy to report i have only missed 1 morning this week of my morning pages. I notice subtle things going on in my mind. I am becoming aware of how much i focus on the flaws of my body. I have known for a long time that i have body issues, and i would argue that to some extent, all women do. But enough is enough. I have thought of remedying these “issues” with plastic surgery and can’t say the idea is totally out of my head. But for now, i can’t afford it. Which is sort of a blessing in desguise. I need to learn to love my body TODAY. Hopefully, that will turn into loving it all week. Which will in turn become all year, and hopefully if i am ever financially able to afford sed surgeries, i will be so comfortable in my own skin that i will opt not to. To be clear, i am in no way against plastic surgery, and when it comes to the subject i would never say never, and never have 🙂 But, instead of daydreaming all day about what surgeon i would go to, or how long it would take me to earn the money, i would rather take all that energy and put it towards loving myself now. A great thing that has been helping me with this is yoga. When you practice yoga, all you have is your own strength, and all you can do is concentrate on building this within your body and spirit. It is quite empowering. You should try it.
I have set up some casting workshops for myself that will take place in August and September and my next goal is to sign up for that improv workshop at the Upright Citizens Brigade. It is $350 and at the moment i can’t afford that, but i will be able to soon enough. Just gotta get back to work! All this stuff is an investment for sure and each time i hand over my debit card, i have a small anxiety attack. (i get that from my father) But i know that not only is it tax deductible, but it is necessary in the development of Lee Anne Inc.
Tonight I’m off to the Hollywood Bowl for Classical music and cheap wine! More rest and relaxation is to come over the weekend, which i must say is well deserved. Everyone have a happy Friday!
Please take the time to listen to this entire thing. It is three pieces by a man name Anis Mojgani and he is seriously one of the most passionate people i have ever seen open their mouths. I hope to have this kind of passion in my work.
Well it is the official last day of Weeds and i couldn’ t be more ready. It has been a fantastic experience that i will never forget but it is time to move on. As a wrap gift we recieved a jacket, that is not too flattering but will do well keeping me warm on sets when i am doing background, and it has a nifty “Weeds” logo on it. From all the actors we recieved an ipod shuffle that is green and has the words “i light the bong” on the back. It will be perfect for those hikes at Runyan! Last Sunday MLP threw a going away fiesta at her house. We ate, drank margaritas, danced with babies, and watched about 20 kids search for treasure in her backyard. It was so fun and great to see everyone outside of work and less stressed. Tonight is the official Weeds wrap party at a restaurant and bar called Rise on the top of the Hollywood and Highland complex. There will be an open bar and lots of dancing. It should be a perfect end to this 5th season.
I am hoping and planning to take the next month off and spending some quality time with myself and my dog. I want to make some progress for myself and my career now that i have had the experience of working everyday on a set. I am planning on taking at least 2 acting classes and meeting with agents for possible representation. I have 3 strong contacts so far, and my goal is to meet with 10 within the month. I also plan on taking alot of yoga. Being healthy and taking care of your body and mind is a very important component of success, and i don’t want something like scheduling or laziness getting in the way of my progress. Yoga is the perfect blend of strength and stretch and it really helps to quiet my ever racing mind. I will also be doing the creative study “The Artist’s Way” that i had mentioned in a previous blog and was recommended to me by the one and only Jenna Fisher. (When i started this job i abandoned it because of sheer lack of time) I am hoping it will aid in creative development over the next month and get me into new habits to continue the growth when i have to go back to working. This city and this business can take a toll on your creative self. Couple that with long hours and some down right mean people and you can really lose yourself. Creating positive habits for growth and reflection are neccesary to stay on track. If you haven’t heard of “The Artist’s Way,” please check it out. I will, of couse, be blogging my progress along the way so stay tuned.