My people! My readers! I bright and shiny hello and happy new year to you! (What is left of you that is) I understand, i have been gone a long tme. I understand you are terribly disappointed 🙂 But I have good news…I’M BACK. I took some time off from the blog because, honestly, i didn’t have many positive, exciting, interesting things to bring you. I was in it. And for those of you who have ever been “in it” you know what i am talking about. But that is behind me. Of course there will be ups and downs, just like before. But i needed some reflection and now i can tell you about it…to an extent. I mean, we all need our secrets right?
Where to start? Well, i moved out of Los Angeles. What?! Yup i did. It was such a hard decision but it felt like it was the right one. I still question it every single day, but i have to trust that following my heart at the time will bring me good things in the future. I came home for many reasons. I was broke, for one. I wasn’t finding jobs, like any jobs. I wasn’t auditioning. I didn’t feel like an actor. I was saying I was an actor and i believe that, i am an actor, but i didn’t feel like one. No creation. No work. My family was also going through some minor crises and i thought that i should be close by, in case the bottom dropped out. So, i packed the car and drove back across the country. It was so hard to do by myself, but like most things i put my mind to, i got it done. After I returned home, my Grandmother died in early December…if i regret coming home every single day, it was worth it to be here to spend some precious time with her before she passed. I was able to attend the funeral and read some of her poetry in the service. It was so special to me to do that, after all, i must owe some of my artistic talents to her…
So now I am here with Bella, in Jasper Alabama, sitting in a lakehouse that is 20 minutes from a grocery store. It is lonely and isolated. But i need that to study and write. I am currently working on Graduate School auditions. We can talk about schools once i am accepted. But know for now my outlook is possibility. It’s that simple. I hope that this year brings you joy and good things. I hope that you eat some nourishing, delicious food, i will try to bring you some recipes; that you meet new people that will enrich your life; that you make some goals because you want more, not because it’s the new year…and that you accomplish them; and mostly that you remain open to new things, even the things that seem bad, because you never know where they can lead you.
I appreciate you for reading this. A woman walked up to me at the funeral, who I did not know immediately, and she said “i read your blog. i keep up with you.” It felt amazing to know that. So I promise to keep writing, even though i should probably change the title of the blog now 🙂 Thanks for hanging with me if you did. It’s going to be a new and exciting year!